Hi. My name is Lona. I am a single mother of two wonderful little boys, but this blog is not about them; it is about me. I have struggled my whole life with self esteem and Weight. Right now I am at the heaviest I have ever been in my whole life. I weigh 388 lbs., there I said it. I weigh 388 lbs., wow that is hard to read. I have recently went through a divorce with a man I was married to for 15 years. This is the first time in my whole life I have even done things alone for the most part. I have a wonderful family that is there to back me up and help out when I need it, so I am not completely alone.

I was sitting at my kitchen Island and was thinking about all the excuses I have for not making myself better. I was thinking I don't have the time, we are so busy, I don't have money for special foods or programs. When will I work out between work, doctors appointment for my oldest son, and football practice for my youngest. It was excuse after excuse after excuse. My mom had offered to pay for me to do Weight Watchers, and again I was making excuses about how I can't afford to buy diet food I have to buy and fix what my kids will eat. Again excuse after excuse after excuse. As I was sitting at my kitchen island I took a good long look at myself and said I have got to STOP making excuses. I texted my mom and said I AM READY. No more EXCUSES. I posted to Facebook about the journey I have decided to take and found that there were lots of people willing to encourage me. I have to admit I sat there and cried.

I started looking on YouTube for workouts that are for morbidly obese people that would get me started to doing some type of exercise, and you know what I found some good ones. I decided I was going to just try one of them out. Normally I would quit half way through or just watch them do the workouts and not do them myself, but you know what encouraged me was that my 8 year old said "mommy can I do that with you?" We were so busy encouraging each other that I did a 35 minute workout without even realizing I was doing a 35 minute workout. Funny huh.

I am starting this blog mainly to help me work through things and maybe encourage other people who are where I am just fed up with making excuses. I want to encourage and empower not only myself but others as well. I feel that if I use this blog to hold myself accountable it my help me do better on my journey.