Here I go again....

Well it has been a while since I posted, I have to admit I fell off the wagon and was ashamed. I am trying real hard to get back on the wagon though. I have started exercising  again and I am trying eat healthier. I have a found a wonderful doctor and he had been encouraging me. My diabetes has gotten out of control and I am now on insulin. I am hoping that through diet and exercise I will get off the insulin. I will keep everyone up to date. Here I go again....

Beginning of Week 7: No loss

Well I didn't lose this past week, But that is ok...You just must continue on. That is all.

WEEK 6: Birthday weekend

Well I had my birthday weekend this past weekend. It was a lot of fun I got to spend time with my mom which was awesome. I am down 3.0 lbs. for a total of 34 lbs. but then I am only allowing myself to weigh once a week. I tend to go up and down quite a bit; So I get frustrated really easy and tend to want to give up. I am going to push on. People are very encourgeing; so I am just going to keep on keeping on.

CS Lewis once wrote:"Hardship often prepares an ordinary person for an extraordinary destiny."

Starting week 5: Still going strong

Well to say it was a great week last week would be an understatement. I am down 31.1 lbs. so far, but I have realized I can not weigh every day; if I do I get discouraged. I have decided to only weigh on my weigh in day which is Friday mornings.  I have started trying to walk, I am walking on my lunch breaks at work. I am also trying to do a fitness video on the days I don't have time to walk and I asked for a Wii U Fit for Christmas, but found out that my dad got it for me for my Birthday so I can not wait for that. I have been a little stressed out due to lack of money but I am trying to make things work the best I can. I meal prepped for the week this week so I shouldn't have to worry to much the boys will just have to eat what I fix or don't eat. I am drinking my water and a lot of it, I have noticed I am kind of lazy on the weekend when it comes to my water. Well we will see how this week goes....

Start of week 4: New Day New Me

Well it is the start of week 4; I am down 20.5 lbs. I got a hair cut and even put on makeup this morning. I am starting to feel better. I know it isn't always going to be this easy, but I am thankful for what I have lost so far. I can tell it a little bit in my face. I am try to have a more positive outlook trying not to be so negative.  I actually got up yesterday morning and cleaned my house and got almost all my laundry done. I am going to step up my exercise routine and see if that will help with the weightloss. All I can say is so far so good.

Week 3: Heading up that hill:

Well week 2 was a success. I am down 4.6 more pounds for a total of 9.4. I know I will not loose thins much every week but it has been great so far. I feel off the wagon a little this past weekend, but I managed to stay within my calories and points. I just slacked on the exercise which is something I am going to have to get motivated for. I know it sounds funny, but I got so excited that my mom bought me a scale and it is one of those really cool ones that you can link to your smart phone, no fudging on the weight anymore. I have noticed that with all the technology it is actually encouraging me. I don't know if that makes any sense, but just knowing that I got so many steps in yesterday makes me want to get even more today. This is definitely an uphill battle right now, but I fell like that it is totally worth it.

So I am working on myself physically, but I am still struggling emotionally. I let everything get to me from my kids fighting to work to just dealing with inner demons. I wish I could figure out a way to not let stuff get to me. I had what I like to refer to as a "down day" yesterday. I had no energy, I didn't want to deal with anything, my kids kept wanting me to play with them and I just wanted to be left alone, so last night the guilt kicked in because I didn't play Uno with my sons when they asked me to. So I am just trying to learn how to push through the emotions, hopefully one day I will.

Week 2:

I think that I did real good over the weekend. I actually made myself get out and walk, now granted I didn't go very far. I am so out of shape. Baby steps each time I will make myself go a little farther every day. My youngest son loves doing the fitness video's with me in the evening after supper. I am starting off real slow but I think I am doing good. Your reading about a person with NO willpower. I have been praying for the strength to keep on. I have had a lot of encouragement this time. I know it is only the beginning of the second week but I have made it this far. I am hungry, but aren't you suppose to be a little hungry? I am been drinking lots and lots and lots of water. One day I will post of before picture. I lost 4.6 lbs. last week so that was encouraging too. My mom bought me one of those really cool scales you can link to your phone and I have a Fitbit which I love. I have been logging everything I eat and trying to be honest about it. So until next time.