Week 3: Heading up that hill:

Well week 2 was a success. I am down 4.6 more pounds for a total of 9.4. I know I will not loose thins much every week but it has been great so far. I feel off the wagon a little this past weekend, but I managed to stay within my calories and points. I just slacked on the exercise which is something I am going to have to get motivated for. I know it sounds funny, but I got so excited that my mom bought me a scale and it is one of those really cool ones that you can link to your smart phone, no fudging on the weight anymore. I have noticed that with all the technology it is actually encouraging me. I don't know if that makes any sense, but just knowing that I got so many steps in yesterday makes me want to get even more today. This is definitely an uphill battle right now, but I fell like that it is totally worth it.

So I am working on myself physically, but I am still struggling emotionally. I let everything get to me from my kids fighting to work to just dealing with inner demons. I wish I could figure out a way to not let stuff get to me. I had what I like to refer to as a "down day" yesterday. I had no energy, I didn't want to deal with anything, my kids kept wanting me to play with them and I just wanted to be left alone, so last night the guilt kicked in because I didn't play Uno with my sons when they asked me to. So I am just trying to learn how to push through the emotions, hopefully one day I will.